Nicole text me today that Thursday is Lex birthday. I am totally broke, but I have to get something for her. I have to go to mall, not only for her gift, but getting something for a conference I will attend this weekend in Berkeley. It's about women in Iran. Some bullshit again, but I will go and see some friends, may be get drunk or smoke. Who knows?

This pain is killing me. I have to come back to my article and finish it. If I finish this one, I only have a 200 pages book left to read and write a review about. Writing part is not that bad, reading is killing me.

I had a big bowel of salad for my lunch again and still hungry. Thanks to the dark coffee I had in the morning, I am still awake. If I finish this paper,...never mind.

More than anytime in my life, I come to this point of looking at languages just like a bridge to get me from A to B. Who cares what kind of bridge is that? Fuck the way, destination is important.

I may write more and more in English, especially when I want to talk about my emotions. I can write in other stuff in Farsi and keep my bullshit in English. How about that?

Fuck the grammar and spelling. It is like when you fuck someone, and in the middle the lover says "Honey! by the way your pronunciation of fuck is not right." And the other reason that I have far more American friends, or better say, non-Iranian friends and I want to share them my writings too.

I know Nicole doesn't like my whole philosophy about spelling and grammar. For god sake, she is the English major one, but she has a big heart and I know she loves me more than those 1ooo years guys, sitting in the basement of Oxford University and make the grammar for our worlds! ( You know we dont have such guys! or we do?)

I m mad of my boss, behind my radio producing project, behind my studies and writing. Actually, I m behind of my life. Sounds that this fucking gas price does not affect the speed of my life.

I got three new piercings on my left ears. Thats all.

It is Thursday, December 13, 2007 and nobody is in the office. Holiday is right in the corner and nobody wants to be here. My coworkers found their excuses to leave the office, but I have to wait till 4:30 to go directly to the school. I have to turn to final projects today and the big final for this stupid class is coming next Tuesday, then I will have eleven days off at work and January will be a whole new chapter in my life. I can not wait to tell you.

Be Back! Soon.

I cam to work today and wish I could quit my job; I do like my job, but sometime is getting very frustrating. I know it is just the first week of new schedule and it is my normal nags!

I have a lot to write about. I just don’t know where to start! Have you ever design a booth for a fair? That’s what I m searching for now as my cousin, who is a professional photographer will present his work on a local fair and I m in charge of design! I took the task voluntarily, but it is not that much fun as I thought!

I may decorate the booth with white and yellow satin and flower. My sister is an interior designer, but she is so expensive! If I finish the project, I will post some picture of it here.

My beloved dad will come back tonight. I am going to pick him up from airport after my stupid biology class tonight; can’t wait to see what will he bring!

1. Shower
2. Breakfast in Mom’s house
3. Grocery Shopping
4. Cleaning the house
5. Working on my conference project
6. Buying school’s book online
7. Making lunch for tomorrow
8. Costco ( before 5 pm)
9. Call some friends
10. Email vacation pictures to some friends
11. and…

50 of the women's rights movement activists were arrested in front of the Revolutionary Court in Tehran.

The security police forces attacked a peaceful gathering of women's rights activists that had taken place at 8:30 am in front of the Revolutionary Court in Tehran in objection to the recent governmental oppressions and the summoning of some of these activists. The police forces who used violence to scatter the crowd, arrested at least 21 of the protesters.

According to the report published by Advar News, the list of the arrested is as follows:

Asieh Amini, Jila Bani Yaghoub, Mahboubeb Abbasgholizadeh, Mahboubeh Hosseinzadeh, Sara Loghmani, Zara Amjadian, Mariam Hossein Khah, Jelveh Javaheri, Niloofar Golkar, Parastoo Dokoohaki, Zeinab Peyghambarzadeh, Maryam Mirza, Saghar Laghayee, Khadijeh Moghaddam, Saghie Laghayee, Nahid Keshavarz, Mahnaz Mohammadi, Nasrin Afzali, Tal'at Taghinia, Fakhri Shadfar, Maryam Shadfar, Elnaz Ansari, Fatemeh Govarayee, Azadeh Forghani, Sommayeh Farid, Minoo Mortezayee, Sara Imanian.

Nooshin Amhadi Khorasani, Parvin Ardalan, Shahla Entesari and Susan Tahmasebi—five prominent members of the women's rights movement—who had to attend their court hearing left the court session in support of their fellow activists. They, too, got arrested upon their departure from the court.

The police officers hit Nahid Jafari's head to the police van and as a result of such violent actions, her teeth broke and the officers are currently refusing to take her to the emergency room.

Source: Azadeh Poorzand

The cycle of my disappointment is getting smaller and smaller. These days, more than before, I am thinking about future, my school, job, and money.
When kids graduate form high schools and are fresh in colleges, they think about changing the world and some of them really do, but when I have to start all over again in my 25th it is getting harder to think like that. I live in real world more than my drams. I went to three majors till now, civil engineering, low, and sociology. I love the major I study now. It is the best fit for my interest. But the question is what can I do with for example BA in sociology? I do want to continue to get my PHD in it, but life is not as easy as typing. I wish getting to that is as much as easy as talking about that. Vahid is still not sure too. I feel responsible for thinking about that too.
We are 25. I know we are young, healthy and having long journey ahead, but…

These days, more than any other days, I wanna do something with my hand. I am tired of these damn computers. I wanna do something in real world. Auto mechanic, plumbing, carpeting, nursing, walk dogs, or just do something outdoors.

It is my dream to have a small café, but I want to keep this dream for my retirement. I use to have a friend who told me in my cycles that I am not in race with my self nor anybody else.
It is stupid to think being a milliner in one night. I know that, but also I want to know my path is going to a safe and secure financial place.

Lets make some coffee….

Saddam Hussein was executed in last days of 2006 in Iraqi’s custody. One of the audiences shot the scene by his cellur phone and now that video is the second most visited video by google in its history. Such a violence lovers! (even I put the video in my Farsi blog).
I am against execution for anyone. It doesn’t matter if he was a dictator. I think nobody in the world has the power to get others lives. No matter what he did to humanity, death was not a good punishment. Lots of people say that death was an easy punishment to him and he should suffer more. I do not agree with this. I believe his alive could be more beneficiary for the world and for Iraqi’s people.
He was judged and condemned in an Iraqi’s court and he was found guilty for some of his crimes, including killing his people with chemical bombardment in Halabja and for his crimes against Kurds. Have you ever notice that nobody mentions his crimes against Iran during eight years war? (1980-1988).
He attacked Iran and in eight years millions of troops were killed in both sides. On that time UK and US were his big partners. He got his bombs and chemical weapons from Europe and the US. We still have kids born with cancer in those areas. Who is respond for that?
I cannot blame only him. It was Iranian government too who didn’t stop the war in the time they could, but why there is no picture of Saddam and Rumsfeld anywhere in TVs or news? Even I can remember US was his big partner before his 1990’s attack to Qatar.
I think the court went so fast. For me it seems some powers want to shut him as soon as possible. Some powers did want him to be silence.
Saddam was executed, but are the memories of people executable?

James Correction:

Dear James,

Saddam Hussein was executed in last days of 2006 in Iraq’s custody. One of the audiences shot the scene by his cellular phone and now that video is the second most visited video by google in its history. People are such lovers of violence. I am against execution for anyone. It doesn’t matter if he was a dictator. I think nobody in the world has the power to get this should be to take other’s lives. No matter what he did to humanity, death was not a good punishment. Lots of people say that death was an easy punishment to him and he should suffer more. I do not agree with this. I believe his being alive could be more beneficial Iraq’s people.
He was judged and condemned in an Iraq court and he was found guilty for some of his crimes, including killing his people with chemical bombardment in Halabja and for his crimes against Kurds. Have you ever notice that nobody mentions his crimes against Iran during eight years war? (1980-1988).
He attacked Iran and in eight years millions of troops were killed in both sides. In that time UK and US were his big partners. He got his bombs and chemical weapons from Europe and the US. We still have kids born with cancer in those areas. Who is responsible?
I cannot blame only him. It was the Iranian government, too, who didn’t stop the war in the time they could, but why there is no picture of Saddam and Rumsfeld anywhere on TV or in the news? Even I can remember the US was his big partner before his 1990’s attack on Qatar.
I think the court went too fast. For me it seems some powers want to shoot him as soon as possible. Some powers did want him to be silenced.
Saddam was executed, but can the memories of the people be erased??

Good Evening. We love to accept you invitation for watching a movie. I remember last time, we enjoyed Big Hug Day. Our classes will start January 16, so we can make it at least twice before that. Let me know any free time may be for next week.
Oh, remember I told you about Judy Abbott and Daddy- Long- Leg? Here
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daddy-Long-Legs_%28novel%29) you can read more about her character. Daddy- long- Leg was my favorite cartoon when I was a teenager. You know teenager girls. They all are waiting for their handsome and wealthy prince.
I also ordered Funny in Farsi, the book I told you about Iranian family in the US, through Amazon today. It will ship between 4 to 14 business days. Please let me know whenever you receive it. You can take that as my New Year’s gift. I am sure you will enjoy the book.
Let me know your free time for our movie night.

Regards,

It is Christmas Eve and I Hope a great night for you and your family. I don’t know how non Christian celebrate Christmas, as it is related to the birth of Jesus, but as an American traditional I wish a great time for you.
It was not a good start for my holidays today. I found my psychology professor gave me B in his class and it shocked me early morning. Before final, my overall was 98% and I am pretty sure about my A in this class. I emailed him and till morning, I checked my mail box zillions times. Still no answer.
It is my first non- A grade and I am so lost know. I don’t know what should I do and how can I follow with it. I am sure it was a mistake.
Any way! When it comes to my grades, I act like a first grade elementary school kid. I am so worry about my grade and GPA.
I have to tell my blog’s reader about our English challenge. I will write about it tomorrow.

PC: Such a sad gift for Christmas. OK. I know it is enough.

Jemes correction:

Dear James,

It is Christmas Eve and I Hope a great night for you and your family. I don't know how non Christians celebrate Christmas, as it is related to the birth of Jesus, but as an American traditional I wish a great time for you.
It was not a good start for my holidays today. I found my psychology professor gave me B in his class and it shocked me early morning. Before my final, my overall grade (or GPA) was 98% and I am pretty sure about my A in this class. I emailed him and till morning, I checked my mail box zillions times. Still no answer from him.
It is my first non- A grade and I am so lost know. I don't know what should I do and how can I follow with it. I am sure it was a mistake.Any way! When it comes to my grades, I act like a first grade elementary
school kid. I am so worry worried about my grade and GPA. I have to tell my blog's reader about our English challenge. I will write about it tomorrow.
PC: Such a sad gift for Christmas. OK. I know it is enough.

PC: I have my last final today. Art History, and believe me, it is very harder to remember modern artists and works than traditionals. What was wrong with Michelangelo’s sculptures?

Mess Medias are bombing us everyday with their shows and commercials. In their dreamland, everybody can have house, a job, college degree, and a nice family life and can afford eating and drinking out. They make us believe that all of these are possible and if we don’t have, it is our fault. Nothing is wrong about society. There is no poverty and it is kids fault if they were born in poverty. In their dream, every body can be an Oprah Winfrey and shop a six thousand purse. For them, rising money for African kids is another entertainment and adopting is a promotion. Our Hollywood celebrities adopt kids and the go through divorce. Where are we going?

Why there is that much ignorance for immigrants in Media's programs? Dont we have success Mexican, Asian, Middle Eastern People in this country? I don’t want to say that America is going to hell, but we have to think about all this ignorance and money based society. The society which is use to be proud of its diversity and was known as a land of opportunity.